I am writing this..as i am breaking down. I couldn't help my tears to fall as i realize how challenging it is to reach for a dream-- i have never experienced it before, obsessing on something you really love. It is a very painful process.. not one where you can just say "i dont think i could do this, i give up." It's even more painful to have the thought of giving up. I understand now why a lot of people give up on their dreams because it is very emotionally exhausting.. it drains all the energy out of you. I could understand it now..
it's even more painful to feel that you are so close, but so far. I have prayed so hard everyday--and still am--serving my church, since i made that a part of my life purpose. It is tough, you feel like your reaching for your dream alone.. some people support you, some ignore you. It is a very tough process but it's even tougher to give up.
I could understand why people would rather give up on their dream and instead become comftble of where they are at. when you are reaching for a dream you feel lost--no set direction, no set time, no set results. You dont know who's gonna stick with you for the long run, or those that may leave you in your journey. It is a heartbreaking process and the only thing I can do is to believe in myself and what I can do. The rest, i leave to prayers.
I pray one day all mydreams come true. Im dying to help my family, im dying to provide with great pride and help (emotionally and monetary)..I want to be a living example that dreams do come true as long as you have the right purpose.
