Why I’m So Abnoxious About Becoming Successful.

It’s not for me. It’s for something bigger than me.

1n 1991 I was diagnosed with H Fever, Typhoid Fever, and Pneumonia. I was really sick and was admitted to the ICU of a local hospital. Story short, I was so sick that the doctor’s couldn’t revive me.

I died. I flatlined for a few seconds. maybe minutes.

Miracles do happen. Obviously I am alive and well today. It all makes more sense now, that God has given me my life back because I know I have to serve a greater purpose. something BIG. Didn’t know it then, but I know now.

I came from a broken marriage. My dad was unfaithful, my mom left the country when I was two years old. Didn’t really grow up with a ‘mom’ and ‘dad’… more like grandparents, uncles, and aunties. My dad had tuberculosis and major heart problems and passed away in 2001. Mom has been slaving herself with work since she was 20. Altogether that’s 25 something years of labor.

Mom is slowly becoming unhealthy because of stress and tiredness. Who can blame her? she’s been on the workforce for so long. She still is the breadwinner of the family in the Philippines. She did re-marry to the most amazing stepdad in the world.

Now on my biological dad’s side, I could see traces of poverty. lack of money, broken dreams, lost hopes. All these on top of mom working way too much, the only hope left is… ME.

See I knew I was destined for greatness. I knew that I will be the one to be able to help everyone in my family. And one day, I DECIDED to take on that responsibility…one step at a time. I chose the path to become bigger than I am, having blind faith on what I believe in. Stepping into the commitment I made to myself and my family.

That I will be the one to get them out of poverty, and leave a legacy to my future family.

We weren’t rich. I used to walk to school.. We had christmas dinners with no dinners. Lived in a small house shared with 7 others. slept on the floor. never really had a bed. no hot running water, no stoves, washers, dryers. No locks, no bedroom doors (just curtains)… no cable, no computers, no nothing.

when I was given the opportunity to come to America, i decided to take it.. went through college, worked two jobs since I was 18, and finished college. Kept working even harder after that.. Found a boyfriend, moved to LA after college (only to be dumped a year later hahaha), and found a pretty decent job. I might say I love where I am at now, but I want something more. I cannot just think about “now” or “living in the moment” getting drunk and partying.. I am now building my future. So I can give back to my family. Especially to my mother.

And of course the road to success is tough, only the strong stay (there’s a reason why 90% of America is BROKE). I may not be wealthy right now but I know I will. Extra money isn’t all that. it’s what you can do with wealth that matters. The time I can spend with my family when I don’t have to go to work. When I can write a check to my mom to match her paycheck so she doesn’t have to work. To send money home to my relatives so they can feed themselves. Becoming who I wanna be is very rewarding. Of course I have to take this journey on my own.. I never realized how many of my close friends and family do not believe in me, very unsupportive (or fakingly supportive or think im crazy, they will never understand). Haters, they will always be around. Like they said, “never try to open a closed mind. it will exhaust you.” So whenever I have negative people trying to steal my dream away, I don’t let them. My dreams are mine, and other people will never going to make them happen for me. So why should I let them steal my dreams.

Now of course I want to obtain a lifestyle only a few people enjoy. Nice cars, nice homes, no debt, better food, better vacations…. See I believe in the vehicle im in.. For things to happen to us we must believe it to be possible before it is self evident. But like I said, i’m doing it for something bigger than the material things or the size of my bank account.

It’s for something big. bigger. to where I can leave something for my grandchildren. I wanna see my kids grow up (and not be at a job). To have a stable marriage (since most divorce are caused by lack of money), to be able to travel with my loved ones, to retire mom and dad, to donate more to my church, to start a charity, to leave a name that my whole family will remember… for generations to come.

So there you have it.

If you don’t have goals set for yourself, you sure are building others’.

I strive to be the person who can create a difference to other people’s lives. That’s the most rewarding thing, and the goal I’m aiming for.