had someone give you a massage while singing to you at the same time?
it's a great feeling.
Say It
the song plays
as you whisper in my ear.
as you lay on my back
with your lips kissing my neck,
with your hands running down my spine,
as your tongue make their way down
to my waist
as you ride your way to bliss.
I turn around
your smooth warm chest
rubbing against mine,
As I kiss your neck,
scratch your back…
your strong arms holding yourself up
the view of your physique.
as you turn me on.
You sing the song.
gently in my ear,
taking me to a sensual roller coaster.
never has any other
done such a mind blowing gesture
tried hard to keep my sanity
as you do to me what the song says.
for a moment I was taken away
to a fantasy, where everything else didn’t matter.
the noise, the moan, the rock, the moves..
the heat, the pleasure, the positions, and location.
Completely made me forget where I was..
As if we were in a place isolated..
could never stop; could never say no.
felt way too good – kept wanting for more.
I see me and you make love
sensual, passionate, abusive, almost too hard.
But your talent took me to such a great place,
somewhere where no one else could, and ever will.
too bad this had to end,
abruptly almost, i guess fairy tales are lies.
Somehow we could never again,
replicate the same emotion of what happened.
That was only once, the only time we will ever be.
In that same state, emotion, and heat.
You became cold,
you are gone,
We talk but I lost ‘you’
the warm witty sensual you.
somehow the Gods have to put an end to such an amazing story.
I knew you for long and although you are great.
somehow pride and anger has taken over.
I wished I would’ve never lost you.
Because no one else
no one else.
could sing the song like you do.
Job Security: It’s like the 8th day of the week. It doesn’t exist.
Here’s why I think jobs still won’t be abundant and available in the future – regardless of your educational background, skills, or experience.
Now I’m no Lady Donald Trump or Kim Kiyosaki. But through reading and associations, as well as becoming more aware of what’s going on around me, I have come up with some .. realization.
I was at lunch today and there were janitors that are protesting because some of them are getting laid off, so those that remain at the job do more work for the same pay.
I was making phone calls and two, three transfers later, I’m still talking to an automated machine.
I was at a restaurant and the bathrooms were all automatic flush, automatic paper towel dispensers, auto faucet, etc.
Paying for parking on parking machines.
New and improved systems on administrative work.
Cocacola has a new high touch screen vending machine.
Online schools are on an all time increase.
My point is, this recession has given geniuses an opportunity to create machines, softwares, or in other words, technologically advanced apparatus and mechanisms to replace the “laid off” employees. Sooner or later, everything will be so mainstreamed and improved through technology. Companies are starting to improvise ways to invest in technology to do some (if not most) of the job the company needs – otherwise replacing A LOT of manual labor.
By the time the recession slows down and economy starts to get back up, companies have already found a way to keep the company running –without any manual help. That’s why when the economy gets better that doesn't mean that more jobs will be offered. I just don’t think that there is a thing called JOB security anymore. Unless of course you’re in a career that’s constantly improving (e.g. comp sci, military, etc).
When my dad told me to get back to school and get my Master’s degree so by the time I’m done maybe there will be more work available, I knew that wasn’t my option. Going back to school to get more student loans so when I’m done I could get a JOB so I could pay back my student loans? Doesn’t make sense.
By then Taxes will be ridiculous. If today people take home only 65% of their income, in the future everyone (but business owners) will be taxed so highly they will be all broke, or dead broke. I read somewhere, maybe D Trump or R Kiyosaki have said this, that in the future, there will only be two kinds of people. The upper class wealthy, and the lower class third world poor. No more middle class.
Looks like the land of opportunity is becoming a scary jungle. Actually, I’ll take that back. It’s the Land of Opportunity – meaning you have to go seek it. Thank God I learned this now. Because if I didn’t, I’d still be Naive. America is opportunity. Not the Land of “find a job and be a slave for someone else.”
Wish ko lang, sana iningatan mo ako.
Alam mo, muntik na talaga kitang minahal. kaso. di mo naman sinabi right away na meron ka palang bagaheng kina-carry..magkakilala tayo ng limang buwan, alam mo naman na gusto kita. Paulit ulit kong sinabing gusto kita at gusto ko maging tayo, pero bakit di kaagad sinabi na, meron ka palang pinalalaking anak (na hindi naman sayo, kundi sa ex mong mahal). Sana sinabi mo dati pa para hindi na `ko nagtuloy. di na ko umasa.
Ayan tuloy, nagalit ako. Sa sobrang galit kinailangan kong mag get over sa `yo. Sa sobra kong galit nakahanap ako ng panakip butas. Panakip butas na di ko naman gusto. Kaso parang gusto ko kasing maghigante. OO may nangyari. Ginusto ko. Gusto kong maramdaman ang feeling ng parang pinagsungalingan. Ginusto kong palabasin ang galit ko..
Pero dahil mahal kita pinili kong sabihin sa `yo ang totoo. Na merong isang panakip butas akong nakilala. Okay, sorry kilala mo siya. Of course isang mali ay di naayos ng isa pang mali.
Ngayon galit na galit ka. masyado kang galit sabi mo di mo ako mapapatawad. Sabi mo di mo na ako mapapagtiwalaan. Sabi mo never na tayong babalik kagaya ng dati. Sabi mo nagtaksil ako sa `yo.
sorry, pero sa ilang beses kong sinabi na gusto ko maging tayo, ayaw mo. Ayaw mo dahil di ka ready. Ayaw mo dahil may bagahe kang dala. Kasalanan ko bang magalit sa yo? Tinaksil ba kita ni minsan di mo sinabing naging tayo?
Sorry pero although sa tingin mo mali ang ginawa ko, para sakin, hindi lng naman ako ang may kasalanan dito. Hindi ako nanghihinayang sa ginawa ko.. Ginusto kita, ayaw mo ako, nung kinailangan kitang kalimutan, ayan galit ka. Ikaw kasi, kng sana binigyan mo lng ng pagkakataon na maging tayo di sana nalaman mo kng gano ako ka totoo sa feelings ko, at kung gano ako ka-loyal sa mga mahal ko.
Sana lng talaga, iningatan mo tayo. Wish ko lng, sana minahal mo rin ako.
To you, my love, whom I haven’t met yet.
(p.s, this is inspired by a post my friend had, and the news my dad gave me yesterday.)
To you, my love, whom I haven’t met yet,
You will probably someone I'm best friends with. Who knows me in and out, who will love me for me when all my guard is down.
You kiss me in the morning when we wake up. You make me breakfast, and know exactly what I want to eat. You share the news with me in the morning, appreciate the dress I wear for the day, give me a hug before I leave for work.
You call me throughout the day to make sure I’m doing OK.
We probably live in our dream house – you and I both designed on our dream board. You and me both, looking over the water on our porch, laughing, hugging, and kissing. We both will teach each other dances on our own dancing studio, and you will play music to me on the piano as I sing along.
We will probably wake up everyday excited to help other people build their dreams. We mentor our fellow friends, and be of service to the many. You and I are busy with our charity and our mission work not just here in the US but as well as outside of the country. You and I both, will have our names on our own foundation. We plan our days, months, years together.. We drive our dream cars, both we worked hard for. You will take me to exotic places for months at a time. You will take me on cruises, travel the world, celebrate our years together through exciting adventures.
You hold my hand when we walk on the street. YOu give me kisses on the neck and forehead, and on the lips. You give me flowers. Take me on dates. Walk on the beach with me.. Surprise me with romantic dinners. You will run your hands through my hair, neck, and back. You will put your arms around me when I’m cold. You will tuck me in at night. You will give me massages.. You whisper “i love you” whenever you get the chance. You will steal kisses. You will introduce me to your friends and family as your only one. your life, your love.
You take me to watch the basketball games. Teach me how to snowboard. We will go bungee jumping, snorkeling, and play with dolphins haha. I will take you on a plane ride. we will go to the glacier and go dogsledding. We will play paintball together. I will ride on the back of your motorcycle as we drive along the coast.
I understand your need to be with your guys, so I will give you your guys night out, play out. You understand my girlie needs and you will let me go out with my girls or go shopping with them. I will gladly enjoy your boys night in with beer and games, and you will enjoy seeing me enjoy my girls’ company when we have our own girls night in.
I understand your fetish with cars and motorcycles—i will let you hang out at your tool shed or garage when you want to. I will bring you food and occasionally learn how to fix things using tools.
I may not be your perfect dreamgirl but I sure will give you my all. I will be appreciative of the little things you do and give them in return. I am faithful and always civil. When we argue I never raise my voice. you never raise your hand on me. We fix our arguments with honesty-- quickly, calmly. We never go to bed mad. We always resolve our problems together.
When we have kids I want them to be like you – honest, disciplined, respectful, generous, sweet, calm, collected. Smart, driven, motivated, ambitious, and a true leader.
Now I dont know what you will look like. But I am sure your eyes will be mesmerizing, your lips be so gentle. I know my hands will fit nicely with yours, and my body will fit in your arms. I know your touch will be gentle, your voice sounding like sweet music. I know you dress nice, very presentable and decent. You don’t smoke or do drugs, cuss or drink a lot. You are smart, witty, has faith, organized, creative.. A great dancer, very musically inclined, physically fit, athletic.. A true servant leader, and is always of service to others.
I don’t even know if I have already met you or if you even exist. But I leave everything to God since He is the author of my love story. I am willing to wait. I know you’re out there. I wonder what you’re doing right now. Hopefully thinking of me.
Love,
Your future other half.
My Own Search for Love.
And boy is it tough.
I thought I found it. ha, only to be settling down for someone I cant really be with. But nobody is perfect out there though, we need to somehow compromise. It's funny how you really realize how much you care about someone until they are gone. As far as trying to make men understand, they never can. I have learned that until it happens to them, they will never understand.
This week seems to be a Hate RonaMay week. Too much happened in just a few short days. I thought I had a past love rekindled, only to find out today that shit aint going the way it should (so, click, delete). funny how men can trick you into "winning you back" when they can't be a man of their words. Exes are like a disease. you just cant get rid of them it looks like. (women, please, you are an EX for a reason. move on!).
on the other hand, i thought Love has found me only to find out it wasn't meant. somehow I feel like God is testing me and seeing how much strength I had to handle all of these, and see if I let these get in the way of my success. Get in the way of my goals. It does, I have let life get in the way of what I need to do. But I can't help it.. I'm only a 24y.o. fragile single woman, vulnerable and gullible.. What are my powers. im no superwoman. Although i got my stuff going, it's hard if there is no one real to share it with. Almost useless. I love to take care of people..people I care about. But somehow it's not in the cards for me. Maybe God wants me to take care of myself first.. As I should.
Love in LA is hard to find.
or maybe I will find it when I'm not looking.
I thought I found it. ha, only to be settling down for someone I cant really be with. But nobody is perfect out there though, we need to somehow compromise. It's funny how you really realize how much you care about someone until they are gone. As far as trying to make men understand, they never can. I have learned that until it happens to them, they will never understand.
This week seems to be a Hate RonaMay week. Too much happened in just a few short days. I thought I had a past love rekindled, only to find out today that shit aint going the way it should (so, click, delete). funny how men can trick you into "winning you back" when they can't be a man of their words. Exes are like a disease. you just cant get rid of them it looks like. (women, please, you are an EX for a reason. move on!).
on the other hand, i thought Love has found me only to find out it wasn't meant. somehow I feel like God is testing me and seeing how much strength I had to handle all of these, and see if I let these get in the way of my success. Get in the way of my goals. It does, I have let life get in the way of what I need to do. But I can't help it.. I'm only a 24y.o. fragile single woman, vulnerable and gullible.. What are my powers. im no superwoman. Although i got my stuff going, it's hard if there is no one real to share it with. Almost useless. I love to take care of people..people I care about. But somehow it's not in the cards for me. Maybe God wants me to take care of myself first.. As I should.
Love in LA is hard to find.
or maybe I will find it when I'm not looking.
Never cry over spilled milk. just gotta pour a new glass.
Today marks quite a new beginning for me. A new slate. A clean and new slate. As far as relationships go, I think I'm done with them for a while. Maybe I should listen to myself and focus on what I need to do, regardless of who I need to do it for.
I will be moving apartments at the end of the month. as far as financial situation goes, I have made some changes. Will be flying to Dallas next month for a great event; maybe purchase a new car. Go on a weekend getaway. Away from all these... people, work, and..love.
I will be moving apartments at the end of the month. as far as financial situation goes, I have made some changes. Will be flying to Dallas next month for a great event; maybe purchase a new car. Go on a weekend getaway. Away from all these... people, work, and..love.
You're probably on this page because you can't see anything on my facebook.
Going through some changes right now. for the better.
(although I admit I did delete some of you, sorry).
As far as everyone else, I love you guys. I will take a break for a minute. I will be writing a lot these next few days (maybe months) so just check in from time to time...
For now im focusing on a project I kinda took for granted.
It will be good to just think about me for a minute.
(although I admit I did delete some of you, sorry).
As far as everyone else, I love you guys. I will take a break for a minute. I will be writing a lot these next few days (maybe months) so just check in from time to time...
For now im focusing on a project I kinda took for granted.
It will be good to just think about me for a minute.
My honesty has caused me to lose the one I loved.
Do we lie to keep them?
Or do we confess and risk losing them?
I guess it's different. I used to date a guy who cheated on me. I was devastated, hurt, embarassed... But what did I do? I took him back, and it made our bond even stronger. I looked past it and saw the potential. He tried. And I gave him another chance...
How about something you did once, only because you have lost hope that you will and could never be with that person? I'm only human, I get hurt, and I'm a very emotional creature. I cannot lie to me or to other people. If something I did bothers me and someone I care about should know about it, I will tell them. I'd rather be honest and risk losing them than live in a lie. If I have lost them maybe I deserve to lose them. I cannot tell someone I care for them when in fact I did something behind their back. I have grown to be an honest person with integrity and if my honesty could mean losing the one I love, then I will take it whole heartedly, accept it, pray for more strength, and let the one I love move on and decide for himself whether there should be a second chance.
Mistakes are made; we are not perfect. Matter of fact, nobody is. Sometimes when you care so much about a person you let all your guard down including letting out all the things they deserve to know. I have learned to own up and fess up to my mistakes regardless of the outcome. And I just did that. It's the hardest thing I have done, but I had to do it. I had to do it.
Or do we confess and risk losing them?
I guess it's different. I used to date a guy who cheated on me. I was devastated, hurt, embarassed... But what did I do? I took him back, and it made our bond even stronger. I looked past it and saw the potential. He tried. And I gave him another chance...
How about something you did once, only because you have lost hope that you will and could never be with that person? I'm only human, I get hurt, and I'm a very emotional creature. I cannot lie to me or to other people. If something I did bothers me and someone I care about should know about it, I will tell them. I'd rather be honest and risk losing them than live in a lie. If I have lost them maybe I deserve to lose them. I cannot tell someone I care for them when in fact I did something behind their back. I have grown to be an honest person with integrity and if my honesty could mean losing the one I love, then I will take it whole heartedly, accept it, pray for more strength, and let the one I love move on and decide for himself whether there should be a second chance.
Mistakes are made; we are not perfect. Matter of fact, nobody is. Sometimes when you care so much about a person you let all your guard down including letting out all the things they deserve to know. I have learned to own up and fess up to my mistakes regardless of the outcome. And I just did that. It's the hardest thing I have done, but I had to do it. I had to do it.
The thoughts of you wake me up at 3 am.
why cant i love you.
have you ever had someone who you care about deeply but you're not allowed to? the hard part isn't about how to love him but how to get him to love you back (disclaimer: love being care about, not necessarily 'love' as that four letter word. more like deep friendship as far as this blog goes).
it's tough to care about someone whom you know cannot give the same back to you. i guess thats where unconditional love comes in, where i would still care even though there is no 'ROI'. it is a little unfair as far as circumstances go. now iknowhow it feels. i used to have known men who wanted to take care of me and love me, but because i didn't give them a chance, i felt like i missed out on it. should i give everybody a chance then? it's tougher for women. we dont have the strength to pursue a guy. it's not in our nature. biologically, women are meant to be pursued. so if we like someone and we deeply care for them, but they cant give it back, that's the end of it.
moving on is what we do next.
although sometimes it's a little unfair as far as chances go. i think everyone deserves a chance to show someone how they care for them and what it would be like IF they were to be together. if it doesn't work out, then maybd it's not meant to be. what IF it DID turn out to be great? what if it was an amazing experience? what if? but i guess we will never find out. I willnever find out.
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fuck it. if a man doesn't appreciate how I am willing to show him that I care, someone out there will.
he prolly doesn't deserve me anyway.
have you ever had someone who you care about deeply but you're not allowed to? the hard part isn't about how to love him but how to get him to love you back (disclaimer: love being care about, not necessarily 'love' as that four letter word. more like deep friendship as far as this blog goes).
it's tough to care about someone whom you know cannot give the same back to you. i guess thats where unconditional love comes in, where i would still care even though there is no 'ROI'. it is a little unfair as far as circumstances go. now iknowhow it feels. i used to have known men who wanted to take care of me and love me, but because i didn't give them a chance, i felt like i missed out on it. should i give everybody a chance then? it's tougher for women. we dont have the strength to pursue a guy. it's not in our nature. biologically, women are meant to be pursued. so if we like someone and we deeply care for them, but they cant give it back, that's the end of it.
moving on is what we do next.
although sometimes it's a little unfair as far as chances go. i think everyone deserves a chance to show someone how they care for them and what it would be like IF they were to be together. if it doesn't work out, then maybd it's not meant to be. what IF it DID turn out to be great? what if it was an amazing experience? what if? but i guess we will never find out. I willnever find out.
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fuck it. if a man doesn't appreciate how I am willing to show him that I care, someone out there will.
he prolly doesn't deserve me anyway.
Women Use Men, Too. ("Beat, Skeet, Delete" for Women).
Yes. it's the 21st century.
I was at the elevators today and my friend has mentioned... "men are more into their goals, so they're very quick to get over relationships.." and I responded. "women do too. it's a new age."
Yesssir. When men used to say "wow she's easy" women nowadays also find themselves saying "damn, that was easy." haha i myself have said this. it's funny how men think they can play women when really women are soooo good (yes, good) at deceiving men. I have seen women play the "innocent" game but actually run a roster of men she plays with. haha. we're such great liars. Men could almost always not find out about this but, hey. we just do a better job at keeping it.
not saying all women are whoring around (i shouldn't say whores, coz whores=getting paid for sex, clarification) which is such a great misconception. I am surprised by how many women I have come across with who believes in "being single" (literally, going all out single) and practice the "beat, skeet, delete" method (if you don't know, it's doing the deed, get your big O, and delete their phone number RIGHT AFTER the deed). And Men, not all women get attached to you when you sleep with them. you'll be suprised that at the end of the day, she really just used you.
ha, i could get shot for writing this by women because I just blew the whole secret. Women nowadays have become more bold when it comes to what and who they like. It's the same exact thing with men. If you men sleep with a woman fast enough you may not think the woman is a keeper. Same with women.. If a woman sleeps with a man quicker than she usually does, it could be that she's just sport fishing.
There you have it. Someone shoot me now hahahaha.
I was at the elevators today and my friend has mentioned... "men are more into their goals, so they're very quick to get over relationships.." and I responded. "women do too. it's a new age."
Yesssir. When men used to say "wow she's easy" women nowadays also find themselves saying "damn, that was easy." haha i myself have said this. it's funny how men think they can play women when really women are soooo good (yes, good) at deceiving men. I have seen women play the "innocent" game but actually run a roster of men she plays with. haha. we're such great liars. Men could almost always not find out about this but, hey. we just do a better job at keeping it.
not saying all women are whoring around (i shouldn't say whores, coz whores=getting paid for sex, clarification) which is such a great misconception. I am surprised by how many women I have come across with who believes in "being single" (literally, going all out single) and practice the "beat, skeet, delete" method (if you don't know, it's doing the deed, get your big O, and delete their phone number RIGHT AFTER the deed). And Men, not all women get attached to you when you sleep with them. you'll be suprised that at the end of the day, she really just used you.
ha, i could get shot for writing this by women because I just blew the whole secret. Women nowadays have become more bold when it comes to what and who they like. It's the same exact thing with men. If you men sleep with a woman fast enough you may not think the woman is a keeper. Same with women.. If a woman sleeps with a man quicker than she usually does, it could be that she's just sport fishing.
There you have it. Someone shoot me now hahahaha.
My Heartfelt thanks to...
Mom and Dad..and family.. and to...
Mr Seth Remis, Brandon Lee, Jamar Gant, Fernando Figueroa, Lyssa Harrington, Charmil Broughton, Travis Owens, Brittney Kunert, Milad Ghandor, Emson Sayud, Jenn Carbajal, Scott Baynes,and the rest of the PPL family, who i talk to on a regular basis, who never bring me down but instead lift me up and encourage me that I can do better. Im thankful to have met you my new family and more than honored to be taking this journey with you all when everyone else have turned their backs on me.
I am forever thankful.
Mr Seth Remis, Brandon Lee, Jamar Gant, Fernando Figueroa, Lyssa Harrington, Charmil Broughton, Travis Owens, Brittney Kunert, Milad Ghandor, Emson Sayud, Jenn Carbajal, Scott Baynes,and the rest of the PPL family, who i talk to on a regular basis, who never bring me down but instead lift me up and encourage me that I can do better. Im thankful to have met you my new family and more than honored to be taking this journey with you all when everyone else have turned their backs on me.
I am forever thankful.
What Women Say Vs What They Really Mean
Dear Men,
I know you guys are not known to "read about relationships" but because you guys are too simple, we women make you complicated by saying one thing but mean another. So, here it is. (Disclaimer: please do not agree if you don’t. haha)
1. "I don't care." bullshit. yes we do. so whenever we say, "I don't care where you go." we actually really do. A lot.
2. “I’m ok.” Ha, depends on how we say it. usually we are ok at this moment. But when we say it in a defensive way, then we’re not. And we expect you guys to keep asking questions.
3. “—“ Exactly. Shutting down. Speechless, no words coming out of the mouth. Ohh boy, this is the time when there is a million things running through our head we don't even know where to start. Solution? ask a specific question instead of just asking “what’s wrong?” coz obviously we could list a million things.
4. “I like you.” Now this could be as a friend, or as a boyfriend, we want to make it vague. We want you to keep guessing. If we say it straight up non chalant, we prolly don't want to date you. But if it has some deeper emotions, then maybe we really do like you.
5. “man, you’re good.” HAHAHAH now I’m sorry, men, but just like you we also lie. We sometimes say you’re good (especially in bed) when we just really want to stroke your ego..but we may not even mean it.
6. “you’re the first to do this, do that.” LOL. Do you really believe this? lol
7. “i don't care what we do, as long as we do it together.” ahhahahha yes we do. if we go to dinner, please don't be cheap. please don't take us to ghetto places. be romantic. take us to the beach. don't stay home and play video games and “hangout.”
8. ”I agree.” hahaha. LOL there’s only a few women out there who would actually argue and fight their opinion. Most women just agree coz they have no idea what you’re talking about.
9. “We’re not exclusive, so I Don’t care if you see someone else.” uhmmm catfight coming up! better not bring your new girl around her.
10. '” NOTHING.” ahhhh the biggest one of all. Nothing means a whole lot of things. everything. You better run. Start thinking about what you said since the first time you met her. “nothings” could make or break both of you. And when you say “ok, i guess there’s nothing.” then a riot explodes. Guys, there is no such thing as “nothing.” We women always… ALWAYS find something.
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