Two New Videos!

Here's two of my most recent self made videos.
Hope you enjoyed them as much as i enjoyed working on them !

(blogspot is not letting me embed it. so please visit my youtube site!)

RonaMayLove Youtube Channel

Heavily Broken (the Veronicas) Cover

Temporary Love (Original Composition)

An Act from "Strangers" who Have Touched My Heart

AS you all have known, I met a S. Korean couple who is from DC this summer. I told them about my Love for their Hallyu wave, and unexpectedly they promised to send BigBang stuff to me. As true honors of their words, they did. They sent me a BigShow 2011 Live Concert DVD and Photobook.

When all of that is great, it's their emails that have touched me. I would like to share it here, because it has moved me in ways I cannot explain.

Here are a few phrases from our email conversations:

"Hi, May,Do you still remember us when we traveled Alaska last July? You mentioned about K-pop and your favorite Big-bang group. And I told you I would get you a Big-bang group disk. And then you gave me your email address. Recently I had a business trip to Korea and had a change to buy a Big-bang group’s live convert DVD disks for you. I came back in town in Washington DC. However, I am not sure your address to which I can ship the DVD disks. Of course, no charge. Let me know your address if you are still interested in them."

"i there, I sent you the disks yesterday through the US postal service. The delivery confirmation number is 0310 xxx-xx-xxx. It will take a couple of more days until you receive it. If you do not receive it or there is a delivery problem, let me know. This delivery and disks are insured. Hoping that you enjoy them, and also hoping that you be a good people to do a lot of good things to other people as other good peoples do. I think that your parents also want you to be a good person in your life. This is all we want. Have a good one."

Here is a clip of my reply:

Hi!!


Thank you! I will be looking out for it-- Again, thank you very very much for thinking of me, and even remembering when you didn't really have to! I still plan on visiting S Korea within the next couple of years, and if I do i'll be sure to let you know!

I see your address on your email signature, is it ok to send a holiday card to that address?

I told my Kpop friends about you two, and they are happy for me. They also want to thank you as well!
Hope you have a great holiday season and ill be sure to keep in touch. Thank you for your advice, i will keep it to heart.

-RonaMay


And this one, i love to share to my fellow VIPS because you are indirectly mentioned here:

"Hi, Ronamay, I am happy to hear from you about how much you like. When you or your family have a trip plan to visit S Korea or this Washington DC area in the future, let me know. I might be able to help you for your trip. Please remember that good people and bad people are always out there, anywhere, any country. S Korea is not an exception. But, most S Koreans are more sentimental, emotional, and warm-heart feeling than other country. Hoping you can meet good and warm-heart and lovely people when you visit S Korea. Also when you meet bad people, please forgive them, and then they must feel your forgiveness and will be changed to a good people. But, this is not all about your life. What is more important thing is that you have your favorite and lovely ones in your life and also you have a lot more to enjoy with other good people including your favorite Big-bang group. Enjoy every moment of your life whenever good things happen to the people who you like, and share your joyful moments with your people. I think this is the life we live. You have a happy holiday, too."



I hope this email touches your hearts as well.
It really pays to show genuine care to people you meet--let's strive to make this a part of our daily lives.


With love,
RonaMay

Confessions of a BigBang FanGirl

wtf.

I have been quite obsessed with a few musicians before (eminem, trey songz, etc) but somehow I am overly obsessed with this time -- a foreign musician. How in the world could I like a boyband who does not speak english, who reside outside of the states, whom ive only known of since January? lmao.

Somehow I was looking up my friend (well, i consider him friend since we've actually hung out and got hammered together haha) Kris Lawrence and ive been hearing about him looking so much alike with Taeyang, a kpop musician. I looked Taeyang up one day on youtube and since that day, I have not stopped googling the crap out of him. I mustve seen ALL of his youtube videos. Then I realized he is part of BigBang, an "idol group" (what they call it in asian countries which basically means boyband) and wtf i started googling the crap out of them too! To think, all these came about only in January!

Then I became even more obsessed upon seeing Taeyang's RealSound Episode and he introduced Shaun Evaristo as his choreographer. Since Shaun lives in LA and he is the closest encounter I can possibly have with BigBang, I made it a goal to meet him. Hahaha Sure enough i did one day, along with Aimee Lucas who has been dancing with Bigbang for quite a while now too.

I can say I am fangirling excessively already, calling myself a VIP--Bigbang fanclub members. The most amazing thing is I did not realize how many VIPS are ALL OVER THE WORLD! haha Somehow my friends have thought I am somewhat crazy for obsessing over a korean pop group but i have found a few of ius in the world (there even is a Taeyang fan here in Alaska! haha).

Kpop is exactly what they say. Once you find it you can never get out of it. I could totally see why so many fans could go on total fan girl mode. These foreign musicians are so talented. They are WORLD CLASS PERFORMERS. They write about true music and their love for music. Unlike most american musicians who put music out for fame, money, drugs, and just about anything--writing meaningless lyrics and similar beats.

Try googling BigBang and see if you won't get hooked. :)

CIAO LA - Farewell PArty


















THANK YOU EVERYONE! I LOVE YOU ALL (EVEN THOSE WHO WERENT IN THE PICTURE LOL)

World of Dance LA 2011 and Meeting Shaun Evaristo




So how funny is that .. I really wanna go to world of dance but when I found out that Shaun Evaristo was in town (coz i thought he was in Korea) I just hurried my ass up and drove to the La Convention CEnter.

When I got there i beelined to the Movement Lifestyle booth (Movement Lifestyle is Shaun's dance company along with other choreographers like Lyle Beniga [on Taeyang's Where U At video) and Aimiee Lucas (Number 1)]). I couldnt find it so I had to tweet mL @whatmovesU and thankfully someone responded and told me where their booth was at,

LOL turns out Aimee was the one on twitter so I went ahead and said Hi to her. We talked for a bit, and I showed her my phone wallpaper and she says "huge bigbang fan, arent you?" lol. I mustve been too obvious. I asked her a few questions and she has mentioned that they (prolly YG or Teddy) wanted her to "move to Korea" but she told me she's still unsure about it. She added "yes, Teddy wants me to, but I will need to confirm. He'll be calling tonight." I asked her about how she would live in Korea and she muttered "well, I will have to learn the language, but Teddy, Taeyang and Gdragon speak some english." I asked her where Shaun was and she said "Shaun is kind of directing some of the crews but he'll be here in a couple hours for meet and greet."

Aimee was a sweetheart (and very pretty I must add, hilarious too) and we had some laughs (she prolly was laughing at how much of a fangirl I am lol). Sure enough i stayed close to the booth JUST IN CASE Shaun shows up.

A couple hours later SHaun shows up and I immediately (i know, it was like stalker-ish) ran to him and said "Hi Shaun, I have been dying to meet you. I think your stuff is sick, and Im a huge BigBang fan. IM RonaMay." "Oh yea, twitter?" (I tweeted Shaun before about his LunchBOxLA party and got excited when he retweeted lol). So, i talked to him for a bit. As much as I wanted to talk to him more, people started coming in and falling in line. He did mention that he "was going back to Korea probably next month." I assume its for the BIgBang promos and activities. He also said "I appreciate it, thanks for following BigBang and I."

I also met Qui Trong (the guy from the Wedding Dress remake) and he was funny as well.





The rest of the time at World of Dance I had a blast. I texted Ryan (Quest Crew) a day before to ask if he was going to be there and he said yes, so i figured id come check them out.







Overall, my main goal was to meet Shaun and I did. So. Yes, i was a little bit starstruck. Who wouldve thought Id meet the guy behind Taeyang's (and Bigbang's ) sickest moves.




And not to mention he's filipino. REPRESENT!

Behind CIAO LA



CIAO LA is fast approaching. It's an event I definitely made a big deal out of... only because it marked a situation in my life where I have decided to finally take over my future, ready to make mistakes, ready to fuck everyhing up, and live on uncertainty.


Why CIAO LA?
I have been in Los Angeles for almost three years now and I must say I enjoyed every bit of it. It has taught me so much in life and made me grow as a person and improved my relationships with other people. However, I think I am over it, or I must say, I have graduated. I have meditated for an answer on what I should do next.. And God cleared my mind and so I decided to leave.

Why leave LA?
well, two reasons: 1) I miss my family. When I went home for vacation last christmas I realized how important it is to be closer to family. I have missed them so much. The feeling of being welcomed, of seeing mom and dad and the dogs when I get home. A place where no one judges and I can just be cmftble. When I got back from Alaska it has nevfer been the same. I was so homesick. I will party out and have fun and taste the hollywood life and all, but when I am hoime, I was lonely. Very lonely.

2) I have decided to pursue what I really wanted in life and that is to take a shot in the music business. When you are in a relationship you tend to forget about your dreams, and when you are busy making the paycheck you forget about your dreams as well. At one point (towards the end of last year) I have been extremely confused of what my heart wanted. I meditated and prayed on it, and I have decided... That music has always been what I wanted. LA is fun, i love my job. but my creativity is killing me because it has no output. A desk isnt an output. Not now at least.

Why not pursue it in LA?
LOL many people do not realize how tough LA is. They think its all hollywood and dandy.. but LA is prolly the most expensive, most competitive, most selfish city i have ever been in. Too tough to do anything.

I wanted to go home to the Philippines and start a platform there. To find the music that suits me. Cheaper to fund, more access to equipment and materials. More freedom, more play. Since it is such an uncertain field im getting into, I wanted to do it where there will be love and support.. And Philippines is a good place for me to start, To build a fan base, music base, practice, train, and get materials together.

So, ALASKA or Philippines?
Well, I am going home for the next eight months to train. Physical, music, get a demo together, maybe a benefit concert, save money, and finally get the clothes (ive styled and drawn) into reality. Mom has been waitinng and has been excited to sew me clothes so im def ready for it too.

Early next year I will be leaving the country (if all goes well). Hopefully no emergencies occur.

What if it doesnt work?

What if it does??

I have nothing to lose. Now is the perfect time to try new things. No kids, not married, no boyfriend, etc.
Im done with college, my car is almost paid off. LA has shown me how to be a tough bitch and have a thick skin, ive met mentors and friends who taught me how to manage money, to be a leader, and how to have good relationships with people.


How about detractors?
well, those who will say "she's coming back coz she prolly cant be by herself in LA. hindi nya kaya. " LOL. well, i have beenn in LA for almost three years and once never did i regret it or had a hard time living here. I was able to go to places most people have only dreamt about. I have met people whom others have only seen on television. I have made relationships very valuable to my existence. I could live here for a long time. But, there are much bigger reasons.

and to those who think I dont have a shot at the music business at all (well, i did have a few lol). I really dont give a shit. hahahaha.

What's the greatest lesson learned?
To do what your heart wants. Because through that all your energy and creativity is being poured out and used up at a 100%. to do something half-assed is almost pointless. There is no success in something you are not passionate about. So while I have the chance to try something I have always dreamt of and actually taking a dip in it, is an accomplishment already. I was afraid I was getting too comfortable in a desk-like setting and a steady pay, but id rather do something I love everyday.

I basically decided im goin all in, on pure faith and determination alone. No security, no certainty. All will be based on my hard work and perserverance and my intimate relationship with God (who, ive surrendered to, and made Him in control from now on).

When you have a non believer....


Practice on how to handle them. COz if you have one, it's definite that there are a hundred others.


Thanks for the Love!

I got readers in Russia now, too??

Man!!!
Thanks for the love!

(i always wonder where my traffic sources are coming from. Some very different IP addresses lol)

It Isn't Always About the $$


The quest to achieve a goal is a mere task almost impossible to accomplish. In reality only about 80% of goals are accomplished--not 100%. And statistically, there are only a few individuals who have achieved their goals.

I found out however is that -- most individuals do not have a goal set in the first place. Not that it is a bad thing. With the society today we are all drowned and caught up with paying bills and "living" and with all the responsibilities we have forgotten to dream. Or we forgot our dreams that we had sleepless nights over when we were little. Those dreams that we tell our parents..dreams that we draw about... those that we play roles with. As we grow older the society molds us into job-seeking individuals, who get deeper and deeper in debt, consumed by student loans--and spend the rest of our lives paying back.

I used to always say "I wanna be rich. Wealthy. Drive a nice car. Live in a nice house." Now I still want all of these of course. But to work a job (actually, more like living a job) to get these things has got me thinking.. "Is a desk what I really want? I don't see my parents, I havent been home to the Philippines, I feel lonely and alone is such a harsh city.. Is this all worth it?" Right then and there ..

"I did not wanna be a part of the statistic--of those who have given up their passion in pursuit of a "job" to pay bills to be encouraged to be more in debt to pay more bills. An Endless Deathly vicious cycle."

I have found out that even though I could make money having a job or having an opportunity, at the end of the day it's not what my heart wants. My heart wants and longs to touch as many lives as possible. Inspire and motivate others. Change their lives by the wisdom I have learned. And I cant do that at a desk. Not at a job. My heart wants to reach out to people. Either inspire them with my music, art, or by my mere presence alone. My heart wants to give back to the people whom I owe it the most--my parents, my hometown/country, my friends who have stuck with me through the years. And I need to give back now. Now.

I pray everyday that everyone could find what their hearts long for--something that gets them excited to wake up in the morning, or to leave them sleepless at nights. The money and success will come along. It's not 'make money and do what we want.' It's 'do what we are passionate about, be great at it, and the $$ will come when we have put value into others people's lives.'

everyday I pray, that even if my decisions aren't right for me, I know God still knows what's best and at the end of it all, I just follow my heart.

I'm not excited about the money--Im excited about the priceless smiles I could see in the faces of those lives I will touch.

Early Signs He is an Epic Fail:

well not really epic fail, that's kinda harsh.
More like, signs you shouldn't date him or make him your boyfriend.

Dear ladies,
To prevent yourself from falling worthlessly in love with a new love prospect, watch out for these:
(how to sort men from boys sooner)

1. He can't take you out on a real date. His idea of dating is hanging out. and ladies, hanging out is not  (i.e. e.g. NOT, NEVER, NO, Hindi) dating.
2. He cannot afford to pay for your food.
3. Bad / rediculous / horrid / no style / dirty - shoes. Yes we look at your shoes!
4. "What are your future goals?" and he answers "I don't know, just kind of living right now."
5. He plays video/computer games - even when you're around. ESPECIALLY! during the time he asked you to come over.
6. He asks you out on a date and says "Can you pick me up?" LOL. or worse, he doesn't have transportation. For example: "My car got impounded." "My license is suspended." "My brother has the car." "Snowed in."
7. Complains about money.
8. Egotistical and narcissistic. Other words, he thinks he's all that. and he thinks he's the shit.
    Big Egos=Small Pockets
9. They flake using the most rediculous excuses.
10.They lie about having kids AND/OR being married, or have a girlfriend (and they still want to get with you.) (not about them having kids or being married, but them lying about it.)

disclaimer: now this doesn't mean they are bad people. they're just not bf material.
oh wait. #11. you make more than them. lol.


Move on! find a more suitable/better partner!
You deserve to be with your dream man.
Never settle. You are allowed to be picky.

#Kris Lawrence #stalking LOL

ok
so i have been obsessing with this filipino RnB singer.
This LA born filipino singer is doing what I want to do: SING and PERFORM.

He's quite an inspiration.
in 2012 I will be doing the same thing.










Helpless...I mean Hopeless Romantic

Have you ever been confused with your love life?

Is it wrong to want to feel special? To be treated nicely, to dinners, to walks.. to be given flowers, to have doors opened...To receive some funny and sweet texts, to get phone calls. To get massages, to be made breakfast for.. to get kisses on the cheeks and forehead, to be given hugs...

Is it wrong to be wanted? to be pursued, swooned, and swept away. To be serenaded, to be asked to dance with.. To receive love letters, to receive cards. To be picked up and be brought to a nice place... to be taken out on roadtrips. To watch the sunset with, to eat funnel cakes and ice cream with. To get drunk with, ha. To watch sports with. to lay on the beach with.. to rollerblade with, to watch tv/movies with...

Is it wrong to be missed, cared about? to be remembered, acknowledged, appreciated. To be introduced to friends and family. To be invited to spend time with relatives...


Is it wrong to be loved?
If it isn't....



Where's mine?

Art Of Elysium Gala: More Than Just A Volunteer Event

Ok well maybe it is.
But this small town girl didnt think it was just that-- volunteer event.
It was more than just checking guests in and tellin them where to go and giving them their seat table numbers. It was more than just that.

Coming from a small town in the Philippines with humble beginnings to be able to work at such a prestigious charity event with an exhaustive hollywood guest list, i was savoring every second of it. Appreciating it for what it was. I may sound over reacting and it may seem like it wasnt a big deal.. but hey, a girl with big dreams and finally get to get a little taste of it? Man, it was more that what I expected.

To see some 30 or so hollywood celebrities and be able to say "hi how are you doing?" or "your dress is gorgeous." or "hey, you look beautiful tonight." and "have a great time in there tonight." plus some of them hilariously check their names in, it was a blast. They were just like normal people. Well I wasnt a FOB obssessed fan.. But hell yeah i was rejoicing. oh, and saying "whats up" to 50 cent? yeah icing on the cake.

here are some shots.

For a gallery of who was there at the event, click here : (I was checking them in, so yes I saw all of them)
http://www.imdb.com/media/index/rg4270299648?page=1


here are some of my shots













Dear Juneau: Top Ten Memorable Moments

1. JUNEAU: Clean air, no traffic, easy drive, cheaper drinks, snow caps, white christmas.
2. Mom Dad Sister + kids and Bill, Daisy, and Bella..and Home cooked meals from Mom

3. Being able to afford a nice computer monitor and wireless keyboard/mouse for the parents for Christmas
4. Ashley and Mckay, reunited. (Ashley thanks for the book!!! I started reading it and I was like "jesus, everyone should read this). Mckay, your dance moves are ever so great!
5. Zarah, Raemond, Malou, Malissa, Grace altogether again...+ Four Lokos + donut holes+ hot and regular cheetos.. and the conversations we had LOL.
6. Nights at the Imperial (classic classic classic) Dj White Chocolate thanks for the Coke and Crown hahaha
7. Ice skating with Joanne and Cheska. (You're so big now! and smartypants!)
8. Jan 1st New Year topper: something scandalous lol. And I was hammmmmmeereeeddd.
9. Kristina and Caleb + home cooked meal + ice cream + Caleb's kisses (Caleb is a lil flirt lol)
10. Rendesvous x 3, 10pm Waffle house, Montana creek watching the moon, Glacier (and the cops checking on us lol), Douglas House x 2 and everything that goes with it hahaha, Dragon dinner @ Canton House, Walmart, Imperial, pel Meni, Parking at the University, Attempted Lena beach stop, NOAA facility,  breakfast at my house,  andddddd Drinks at the airport...all with a great friend.

oh, and a number 11.
Juneau men, take it easy! I could have pulled a "kristin" (from The Hills) if I was nuts. (and, to some of you, you have girlfriends. Be good).



boy. aren't we all growing up so fast.